*i found this draft while editing my old posts. it was made around 2 years ago. its incomplete but here it is*
"musuh dalam selimut" - "enemies in the blanket"
"duri dalam daging" - "thorns in our flesh"
"api dalam sekam" - "ember in a haystack"
there is a conspiracy upon us. there is a conspiracy upon us, the persecuted muslims. let me be frank, we are always the ones being bashed around for being barbaric. we are always the ones being toyed aroung for being medieval. we are GUARANTEED to always be the ones to be blamed for crimes we did not commit. and so we are here. living peacefully. are we?
we may be living peacefully, but our siblings are not. our siblings in russia, india, america, palestine. they are not so lucky like us.
and the most ironic thing is that we can sit here happily, only thinking about ourselves, thinking about our studies, our jobs, our family, our money. its funny isnt it? it is very funny and the most funniest part is that we dont even care about them.
we dont blame us. after all, we were programmed to be like this. to not care. to NEVER care. who cares if they died? we know we dont. and dont we forget to mention, we were also programmed to be like this. to obidiently obey the system that has been forged by someone who we dont even know and with our life, we put our trust in him. we thought we dont even care, but then why follow him?
there is a conspiracy upon us. yes, a conspiracy to paralyze us muslims. havent we forget? there are 1.8billion of us and still we are being pushed around? the jews are only 14.8million and they are killing everyone else. what kind of mathematics is that? thats FOOLS maths!
there is a conspiracy upon us my comrades. we have been deceived from birth. our forefathers have been deceived. all of us. we are FORCED to sit through school for 6 years and then through high school for another 6 years and then we are FORCED to undergo another 4 - 5 years of so called higher education program. and end up with a PIECE OF PAPER?. and do you know in the end we will also be forced to BEG for a job? what kind of maths is that?
and towards the end, we will be FORCED to slave for a piece of paper called money. everyday, everyweek, every month, every year, forever. we have stopped believing in the Almighty to be our sustainer but will faithfully believe that money is our God. money is our sustainer. money is our happiness.
we are being fooled upon comrades. as our brothers die in vain because of an evil that we dont even care to abolish, then one day the Almighty will ask us the same question:
"As your brothers die in vain, what did you do to repay the evildoers?.
and here comes the funniest part of this story, with our mouths shut, our hands and legs will cry:
"we were busy working for ourselves, we were busy goldmining for money, we were busy studying for ourselves, we were busy enjoying our holiday, we were busy my Lord.
and the Almighty will ask again:
"Didnt you even gave a seconds thought for they pain and suffering?
and our hands and legs will cry again:
"No my Lord. we didnt even cared. we didnt have anytime to care"
can u see now com...
*END*
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
one awkward thing
in the spirit of today, i would like to humbly apologize to everyone that i know, including my parents, my siblings, my friends, my teachers and everyone that knew me. i know that i am a walking sack of clumsyness and i am an irritant. i apologize if i have hurt anyone with my words, writings or even actions. i would also like all of you to know that i am honored by your presence and your kindness towards me. i dont deserve this kindness.. i am nothing actually..
and i hope that my apology is accepted..
should i see you again, lucky you. should i not see you again, lucky me.
and i hope that my apology is accepted..
should i see you again, lucky you. should i not see you again, lucky me.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
building the perfect lie
here is some of the few miracles of the modern age:
FACT:
we hear news everyday.
FACT UNKNOWN:
the news we hear are from sources that are not from here. (reuters, afp, etc)
FACT:
news are delivered to us by networks.
FACT UNKNOWN:
most networks (cnn, bbc, etc) tamper with the news.
FACT:
all of us believe what we are fed.
FACT UNKNOWN:
and the networks laughed at our stupidity.
MORE FACT:
news travel from the news agency, then to the networks.
MORE UNKNOWN FACT:
the news is even tampered upon by the news agency.
we do not want to go on. we would kill ourself. but let us walk together, and think. in what kind of world are we living in now?
we cant even listen to anything without it being torn and spined in pieces. and whats more, what we listen now is profiteering some people who considers themselves important. and what does that make us? unimportant persons? to be lied and cheated by them? we are sick by the lies. and we do not want to hear anymore.
and with their politics. its all the same thing. lying has been in their blood. we are sick of being bullied and kicked around like sheeps. you are supposed to takecare of us and now no? and now you cheat and lie and steal from us that will cost our children's future?
and with their television. its all the same thing. and to mock their job as an actor, they also lie. they should be called liars instead of actors. and they lie, and tell us what we should do? and now you tell us what we should wear? and now you tell us how should we live our lives?
and with their news. its all the same thing. what kind of news is it when it is filled with bias and lies? it should be called lies. and to make us sick even further, news are decorated and dissected just to profit other people. and makes us the fool. isnt that what you ARE NOT supposed to do? isnt it your job to educate, no "mental-retarda-te" people?
and with their wise people. its all the same thing. with all of ur religious views and knowledge, you still would sell your soul? for some papers of unknown value? hasnt God taught you anything? and now, we can see all our religious people mimick what the non-believers do? we sing nasyid and call it an academy? we recite the holy (please note: HOLY) Quran and make it into a reality show? what kind of madness have all of you contracted? hasn't God taught you anything?
and with us, its all the same. we are being lied upon, like fly on a hot pot of shit. we are feasted upon because some of us are helpless. and none of you will help us, instead prey on us? is that what humans do now? if someone from us is being good to everyone he knows, even strangers, he is called mad? because he is being good? and he is persecuted for his behaviour? what kind of madness have all of you contracted? hasn't God taught us anything? to be kind with others, to be truthful with others, to be helpful with others. and now you prey on us? play with our trust in you?
IT IS YOU WHO SHOULD BE PERSECUTED, FOR TREATING OTHERS BADLY.
IT IS YOU WHO SHOULD BE PERSECUTED, FOR LYING TO OTHERS.
IT IS YOU WHO SHOULD BE PERSECUTED, FOR CHEATING TO OTHERS.
IT IS YOU WHO SHOULD BE PERSECUTED, FOR BEING AN ASSHOLE TO OTHERS.
do you know how degrading it is to even become a human nowadays? humans have no value whatsoever nowadays. even animals know to take care of their children, even animals know to protect their group and even animals know not to cheat others.
"if you cannot find a leader who is sincere and trustworthy from your society, then you must run to the forests and stay under its root. and stay there, until you die.." - similar meaning of prophet Muhammad's (p.b.u.h.) hadith about what to do near the end of the world.
FACT:
we hear news everyday.
FACT UNKNOWN:
the news we hear are from sources that are not from here. (reuters, afp, etc)
FACT:
news are delivered to us by networks.
FACT UNKNOWN:
most networks (cnn, bbc, etc) tamper with the news.
FACT:
all of us believe what we are fed.
FACT UNKNOWN:
and the networks laughed at our stupidity.
MORE FACT:
news travel from the news agency, then to the networks.
MORE UNKNOWN FACT:
the news is even tampered upon by the news agency.
we do not want to go on. we would kill ourself. but let us walk together, and think. in what kind of world are we living in now?
we cant even listen to anything without it being torn and spined in pieces. and whats more, what we listen now is profiteering some people who considers themselves important. and what does that make us? unimportant persons? to be lied and cheated by them? we are sick by the lies. and we do not want to hear anymore.
and with their politics. its all the same thing. lying has been in their blood. we are sick of being bullied and kicked around like sheeps. you are supposed to takecare of us and now no? and now you cheat and lie and steal from us that will cost our children's future?
and with their television. its all the same thing. and to mock their job as an actor, they also lie. they should be called liars instead of actors. and they lie, and tell us what we should do? and now you tell us what we should wear? and now you tell us how should we live our lives?
and with their news. its all the same thing. what kind of news is it when it is filled with bias and lies? it should be called lies. and to make us sick even further, news are decorated and dissected just to profit other people. and makes us the fool. isnt that what you ARE NOT supposed to do? isnt it your job to educate, no "mental-retarda-te" people?
and with their wise people. its all the same thing. with all of ur religious views and knowledge, you still would sell your soul? for some papers of unknown value? hasnt God taught you anything? and now, we can see all our religious people mimick what the non-believers do? we sing nasyid and call it an academy? we recite the holy (please note: HOLY) Quran and make it into a reality show? what kind of madness have all of you contracted? hasn't God taught you anything?
and with us, its all the same. we are being lied upon, like fly on a hot pot of shit. we are feasted upon because some of us are helpless. and none of you will help us, instead prey on us? is that what humans do now? if someone from us is being good to everyone he knows, even strangers, he is called mad? because he is being good? and he is persecuted for his behaviour? what kind of madness have all of you contracted? hasn't God taught us anything? to be kind with others, to be truthful with others, to be helpful with others. and now you prey on us? play with our trust in you?
IT IS YOU WHO SHOULD BE PERSECUTED, FOR TREATING OTHERS BADLY.
IT IS YOU WHO SHOULD BE PERSECUTED, FOR LYING TO OTHERS.
IT IS YOU WHO SHOULD BE PERSECUTED, FOR CHEATING TO OTHERS.
IT IS YOU WHO SHOULD BE PERSECUTED, FOR BEING AN ASSHOLE TO OTHERS.
do you know how degrading it is to even become a human nowadays? humans have no value whatsoever nowadays. even animals know to take care of their children, even animals know to protect their group and even animals know not to cheat others.
"if you cannot find a leader who is sincere and trustworthy from your society, then you must run to the forests and stay under its root. and stay there, until you die.." - similar meaning of prophet Muhammad's (p.b.u.h.) hadith about what to do near the end of the world.
Saturday, July 12, 2008
cold and alone
until when can we stop fighting?
until when can we stop arguing?
until when can we start loving?
until when can we start living?
i am cold,
i am tired,
i am sick of humans.
you humans, fucking egomaniacs.
you humans, fucking psychopaths.
you humans, fucking murderers.
didnt you know you are the greediest bastard God has ever created?
didnt you know that the animals themselves loathe at you?
didnt you even know that you are nothing?
you lie, with your stupid politics.
you cheat, with your stupid tongue.
you steal, with your dirty words.
just to get what that is not yours?
don't you have any shame?
why do you think that u are so superior?
because of your luxury cars?
because of your fucking mansion?
because of your beautiful wife?
because of your filthy fuck money?
you humans makes me confuse.
you humans make the animals confuse.
you sickfuck thrashed the forests.
you sickfuck pollute the skies.
and its you SICKFUCK that destroys the earth.
and you still want to act superior?
and you still claim this is your land?
and you still want to claim power for a fucking nation?
when will you humans learn?
when will you humans know?
when will you humans realize?
that you are just but a tiny sand in a huge desert?
that you are just but a fragment of imagination?
and you still think you are the masters of the world.
i hate you.
i hate you with all my strength,
and i wish to kill you.
because of you, everyone else suffers.
because of you, i suffer.
and because of you, everyone dies.
i am cold.
i am alone.
but this time i am not scared.
because you will never know who you are.
but we,
we will always know what kind of animal are you.
we will always know what kind of suffering u have brought to us.
and we will always know when we will kill you.
you humans, you always forget.
you will never learn.
and because of that, just we wait.
when the time comes,
when all of your power is nothing but sands.
when all of your money is nothing but dusts.
when all of your houses is nothing but leaves.
and yes, we will be there too.
to watch and enjoy,
watching you suffer for ETERNITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
until when can we stop arguing?
until when can we start loving?
until when can we start living?
i am cold,
i am tired,
i am sick of humans.
you humans, fucking egomaniacs.
you humans, fucking psychopaths.
you humans, fucking murderers.
didnt you know you are the greediest bastard God has ever created?
didnt you know that the animals themselves loathe at you?
didnt you even know that you are nothing?
you lie, with your stupid politics.
you cheat, with your stupid tongue.
you steal, with your dirty words.
just to get what that is not yours?
don't you have any shame?
why do you think that u are so superior?
because of your luxury cars?
because of your fucking mansion?
because of your beautiful wife?
because of your filthy fuck money?
you humans makes me confuse.
you humans make the animals confuse.
you sickfuck thrashed the forests.
you sickfuck pollute the skies.
and its you SICKFUCK that destroys the earth.
and you still want to act superior?
and you still claim this is your land?
and you still want to claim power for a fucking nation?
BIGOTRY!
when will you humans learn?
when will you humans know?
when will you humans realize?
that you are just but a tiny sand in a huge desert?
that you are just but a fragment of imagination?
and you still think you are the masters of the world.
i hate you.
i hate you with all my strength,
and i wish to kill you.
because of you, everyone else suffers.
because of you, i suffer.
and because of you, everyone dies.
i am cold.
i am alone.
but this time i am not scared.
because you will never know who you are.
but we,
we will always know what kind of animal are you.
we will always know what kind of suffering u have brought to us.
and we will always know when we will kill you.
you humans, you always forget.
you will never learn.
and because of that, just we wait.
when the time comes,
when all of your power is nothing but sands.
when all of your money is nothing but dusts.
when all of your houses is nothing but leaves.
and yes, we will be there too.
to watch and enjoy,
watching you suffer for ETERNITY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Friday, July 11, 2008
6 sided dice (part deux)
from our previous chapter:
"and thus comes the question that everyone like to say. this world is not fair. God is unfair and stuff like that."
well, in truth, people who say that are actually not well versed in reality, theologically and logically. and why do i say that. apparently those people have not been paying attention, AT ALL, either to the pattern of the world, their daily challenges or God's word. let's divulge further.
REALITY: in reality, life is not about fair. fair and life have nothing in common or do they have any relations at all. fair, in terms of actual life (like in sports, game etc) is 2 people or more, getting the same gear/items/boon while playing/competing. please emphasize the word same. now, unversally, what i have said earlier can be accepted as an analogy of what is fairness. but in reality, life is never fair. some are born rich, and some are born poor. some are born plain idiots and some are born intelligent. some are born pretty and some are born ugly. and so, where does fair fit in? none at all. because fair is not a part of life.
THEOLOGICALLY: in the words of God, He whom is all Powerful has stressed enough that this world is juat a big field. and God stressed that this world is created not to be enjoyed nor harvest. in the words of God, this is just a short stop before going home and God almighty is testing us with what that has been given to us. frankly, God does not want us to become all-good person whom if he stepped on an ant, the ant will not die. God just wants to see, how far can a human will go to obey God. God does not need you to be good. in fact, He does not need anything at all. so, just consider living is a bonus.
LOGICALLY: logically speaking, life can never be fair because its variables is set. variables that is set can only have one set of outcome. refer to "probability" and "human behavioral science". if all the variables that can be set, then we can have a fair set of probability. imagine 2 person who posess same variables. the outcome is simply braindead, they both will have the same set of probability. even so, if u wanted to look even further, the variables in human life patterns are simply too many to be conted. from "mood" to status of relationship" to family background to economic status. imagine how would you count the outcome? the example i gave was just to determine the outcome of a boy that is going to date a girl. imagine counting the probability of someone to get unto a train in thailand going to cambodia?
i could go on with all the gritty details but i think those three is enough to convince me that life is not fair at all. i have realized that life is not something to be enjoyed and that life is just a fatal disease. not only does it kills, it also intoxicates.
look at all the poor people who is willing to whore/assasinate/murder just to earn some invaluable paper that people call money? or are they trying to explain to us the value of life? easily bought by money? and do you see all the rich people who is too filthy rich that they keep all of their vast riches and let the poor rot and die? no even a pity's sake for the sick? i may never know and understand why do they do this and how can they absolve this cancer. but there is one thing that i do know..
is that the only thing that can cure it is the blissful nectar of beautiful DEATH..
"and thus comes the question that everyone like to say. this world is not fair. God is unfair and stuff like that."
well, in truth, people who say that are actually not well versed in reality, theologically and logically. and why do i say that. apparently those people have not been paying attention, AT ALL, either to the pattern of the world, their daily challenges or God's word. let's divulge further.
REALITY: in reality, life is not about fair. fair and life have nothing in common or do they have any relations at all. fair, in terms of actual life (like in sports, game etc) is 2 people or more, getting the same gear/items/boon while playing/competing. please emphasize the word same. now, unversally, what i have said earlier can be accepted as an analogy of what is fairness. but in reality, life is never fair. some are born rich, and some are born poor. some are born plain idiots and some are born intelligent. some are born pretty and some are born ugly. and so, where does fair fit in? none at all. because fair is not a part of life.
THEOLOGICALLY: in the words of God, He whom is all Powerful has stressed enough that this world is juat a big field. and God stressed that this world is created not to be enjoyed nor harvest. in the words of God, this is just a short stop before going home and God almighty is testing us with what that has been given to us. frankly, God does not want us to become all-good person whom if he stepped on an ant, the ant will not die. God just wants to see, how far can a human will go to obey God. God does not need you to be good. in fact, He does not need anything at all. so, just consider living is a bonus.
LOGICALLY: logically speaking, life can never be fair because its variables is set. variables that is set can only have one set of outcome. refer to "probability" and "human behavioral science". if all the variables that can be set, then we can have a fair set of probability. imagine 2 person who posess same variables. the outcome is simply braindead, they both will have the same set of probability. even so, if u wanted to look even further, the variables in human life patterns are simply too many to be conted. from "mood" to status of relationship" to family background to economic status. imagine how would you count the outcome? the example i gave was just to determine the outcome of a boy that is going to date a girl. imagine counting the probability of someone to get unto a train in thailand going to cambodia?
i could go on with all the gritty details but i think those three is enough to convince me that life is not fair at all. i have realized that life is not something to be enjoyed and that life is just a fatal disease. not only does it kills, it also intoxicates.
look at all the poor people who is willing to whore/assasinate/murder just to earn some invaluable paper that people call money? or are they trying to explain to us the value of life? easily bought by money? and do you see all the rich people who is too filthy rich that they keep all of their vast riches and let the poor rot and die? no even a pity's sake for the sick? i may never know and understand why do they do this and how can they absolve this cancer. but there is one thing that i do know..
is that the only thing that can cure it is the blissful nectar of beautiful DEATH..
the blissful nectar of beautiful DEATH..
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